For the Loved Ones who have passed,

I Don't Like To Hurt But
But Everyone Gets Weak
Someone To Rely On
That's What I Really Need

Now Here We Stay
It's All That Were Worth
I've Been Thru The Pain And Been Dragged Thru
The Dirt Whatever They Tell You Were Bigger Than Words
I've Been Where Your Standing I Know How It Hurts
Let This Be A Song Now And This Be A Day
And We Stand Together That Will Be Okay
Because Were Survivors Were Making It Work
Expecting The Best When They Hope For The Worst

One love - This is the way we found
One love - Even though they'll let you down
One love - Nobody's perfect now
One love - Don't let that hold u down
One love - Let's stick together now
One love - We got to stand our ground
One love - It's easy to believe in.

ONELOVE - Feat. Estelle David Guetta

Lyrics could tell my life story.

I really didn`t know life could be so thrilling & drama-free as my life is right now!
The people I have now, these very rare amazing peeps.. Just feels amaze
The experiences - The challenges - The relationships
I have nothing to complain about but the baby-bit lady sooky stuf`

I now do believe if you surround yourself w/ negative shizz` & negative environments - it becomes apart of you & your existence!

(: Just on a bit of a calm happy buzz ATM..

This year has already been unforgettable already;
Being broken for the very first time.
Re-acquainting with dear friends,
Letting go of the past & all the bad it came with,
Awaiting the future -
Excited by it
My inspirations becoming reality
developing & building these beautiful relationships further
& Living life to the ultimate!

There is always going to be bad days.. but no more holding on them to effect me no more.
I let go & wont let it return.
Only time for myself this year, Still have a bad taste in my mouth.



Yesterday- was a bit emotional watching one of my very dearest amaze gf's wedding DVD
- seeing Kristina's Father who has passed away, one specific time seeing kiki and her tata - that moment will live with me forever in my heart.
- Remembering beautiful Chris Arnost - a song played at the reception ; Silence - was very emotional but I know his still rocking, slap the clap being his happy himself up there

R.I.P Mr Pepdjonovic & Chris Arnost

Cant say much more- I just wish the best for there whole familia; Health, Wealth, Strength, Wisdom, Care & Love!

* kiss the sky

Maybe spending couple days with my kiki has inspired me to write and express my emotions..
Some people just bring the best out in you - she is one of those individuals who has ALWAYS been there but as the right time we found a

Beautiful.
Everlasting.
Connected.
Genuine.
Amaze.
F R I E N D S H I P.

(: puuu`

Fishing tonight- try the yob chicken on STkilda pier! (: It is definetly now my favourite activity!

Its the start of something exciting..

I should be sleeping, tomorrow is one of those very important make or breaks days..
Pro's & Con's have been set.
Its the gut feeling you follow.. right? Not doubting myself, but I feel confused - boo!
I will write more publicly about the "situation" @ a further date..

Ok so me and kiki have become literally inseparable.. like i`m not joking when I use that word.
morning, brunch, lunch, afternoon evening & night - I seriously would not have it any other way!

So like... Where the fuck have you been all my life Kristina.
Yes yes I know we have been friends for.. 5 years.. but this friendship is something I have never had & always wanted.

Someone as bubbly, outgoing, super dooper & really see's life from my perspective.
Really understand each other.. without any-words or too many ahaha
The characteristics (:
She is my angel- She is my lil soul-friend (: my lil lovelette pitchkuu - My fisherman friend.
Really really really love her, Always have! But our bond is as strong as OLKA POLKA kicking ass in my kitchen rules (:

Everything happens for a reason - This time, That place, There!
Yob Chicken!

Some people take there friends & family for granted - FUCK YOU! Seriously cant wait to see who you end up with throughout your life.
I have respected every single person who has walked into my life(not including- obnoxious, racists, backstabbers, sluts or junkies. - I will treat you how you should be treated (: like your really baby-bit (:)- until they have either showed me they are not what they seem or are treating others differently..

Its true - If you can count your real friends; (means- who will always be there, never doubt you, support you, love who you are & feel that wushy wushy wush- make you happy and find strength for one another (: ) on one hand - your truly lucky..

This wasn`t my perception at all - Things have changed & I love this new thinking (:

P.S I miss my niece & nephew extremely- words cannot express how much they mean to me!

Just because;

Mood; Satisfied, Energized & just a baby bit Sore.
Listening; Happiness - Alexis Jordan
Highlights; Yesterdays 24 hours!

I love waking, with no worries.

Yesterday was a fab day!
I saw my darling Kristina for the first time in forever! D&M was very necessary ; Speaking about the past few years- A boyfriend who became a husband, friends who became an enemy & all the pasts memoirs`

Also seeing Sally;
Someone I look up to & have for a long time. A beautiful, matured, well educated lady - she is caring, genuine & just A+ to be quite honest.
Always the best and honest advice/great friendship - Like I really love her!
She is someone everyone wished they had a friend like.

Our journey to the S.E - the anticipation to the 1000 steps. To be quite honest - I thought it would be easy shizz` - How I was wrong; Stopped I think about 10 times - up this Mountain!
800 metres to the base of the steps.. That hurt! The steps even worse! If it wasn`t for Sal
- No way! would have I completed it!
Next week - My goal is to complete it twice, & by May - as Sally has quoted "make it my bitch"

I had a very rad day on Saturday! Even the heart felt nice & mooshy. baby bit steps.

--+>

Bringing up Friends who just turn - always open a wound from the past for many.
I see it as ; If you let it effect you- they pretty much just won that moment in your life;

You live once.

But! Sometimes the scar is so deep its repercussions will always be remembered.
boo!
It seems the more you were connected, loved, ETC with this person - it hurts more (for some.)

I really use to be like this - let these negative, inadequate individuals "Effect" me.

What doesn`t kill you makes you stronger, now.

Maybe I been through so many shitty people, I am immune to reject them before its too late.

Something that really really frustrates me is ; Double Standards - Someone says something to you (e.g thats bad) & they end up doing it anyway.

if you don`t like someone, or sit there repeatedly saying how bad they are for you - & then your whole life revolves around them - WTF?

I`m not preaching that I`m some perfect person- nothing f-ing close, everyone makes mistakes-
but maybe once you have made it- dont do it again? Just maybe?

I use to HATE change; and now its my besty - discovering myself, receiving positive criticism from my loved ones and making my life better is all I want.

I did let go of a few friends, acquaintances in my life who were ; fun, made me laugh, always a good times - but not because they are bad people, but for there actions towards maybe not me but others and there actions - People change & sometimes its not right no more.

I still really believe ; Everything happens for a reason.

I am a happy person, sometimes a baby bit emotional - but feeling more stable now-
I know what I want to achieve.
I know what I am going to be.
I know Who I am.
No more effects, defects and negative, well anything that makes me loose concentration.

Everything in my past has made me what I am today.
Good, Bad & Ugly.

Aint` nothing going to break my MOFO stride.

These our a few of my lovelette`s

Familia;

Those memories;

Music; my H20

Beauty

Fashion Idols; K L

21st of January; inspired by Ange x,

Bonjour

Mood;

Listening;